current event and journal entry: terra nova closing?

my mom and i were driving home when my mom told me that Terra nova was closing.
i was surprised. 
and confused.
why were they trying to use that trick again?
you see in  October they were telling us Terra nova was closing. everyone was upset. but then in the middle of the day they told us it wasn't really closing. we were all mad and told them if they ever did tell us it was closing then we would never believe them. well apparently it was closing this time. when i got to school i saw everyone was sad and well.... depressed. i felt like i could swim in all the depressing atmosphere. i quickly sat next to Avery and looked around. normally you would see everyone smiling and laughing and kidding around, but this news, this sad stupid news, had changed everything. the normally chatty upperclassmen were silent as a blank canvas. our normally happy teachers, weakly smiled and tried to say something positive about the situation, but it was obvious that they were as broken as the rest of us. even my hyper super positive happy go lucky group of freshman's were speechless. they all just sat there and looked like broken dolls. barley holding on. Kurt, one of the upperclassmen, just looked pissed off. i swear if he put any more pressure to his teeth they would shatter like glass.
i sat there not knowing what to do next.
cry?
no i hate crying, and i think people would stare.
scream?
defiantly not. everyone would glare at me.
tell the principle off?
maybe...
i sat there gathering My thoughts trying to figure out what to say. Kate began speaking telling us something but i wasn't listening. i tried to get exactly what i wanted to say.
should i talk about how this isent just a school but a family?
should i talk about how wrong they are about closing this school?
should i talk about the reasons they cant close the school without giving us students a fair vote?
my thoughts were inturupted with andrew talking. well, i guess its time to hear how others feel. i tried to listen carfully, but i kept jumping back to the inside of my head.
then i heard them call my name.
what am i supposed to say?! im not ready! gah! people are staring....
i felt my lips move and words tumble out before i could stop them.
"p-pass..."
i punched myself internally...
crap. now i cant say anything.
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will continue later....