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IDENTITY
by: Thomas Bailey Aldrich (1836-1906)

SOMEWHERE--in desolate wind-swept space--

In Twilight-land--in No-man's land--

Two hurrying Shapes met face to face,

And bade each other stand.

 

"And who are you?" cried one a-gape,

Shuddering in the gloaming light.

"I know not," said the second Shape,

"I only died last night!

CHAPTER TWO

I'm of course very busy and have a lot of people to take away and bring them to either the heavens, or to hell. But I do find myself having a little bit of extra time. So I'v decided to start writing this journal. I still think this may be dangerous, but I don’t have anything else to do.  

Today started like any other day. Someone died in a car crash. Bring them to heaven. Someone got murdered. Bring them to heaven. Criminal died in jail. Bring them to questioning.  If they are guilty enough go to hell. Say hi to Satan. Bring murdered girl to heaven. Say hi to Jesus. Bring murderer to questioning. Bring them to hell.

Just me and a bunch of dead people.

Joy.

I was about to stand and look for my mom and dad, when all of a sudden, I saw something move in the shadows. I froze feeling all of a sudden cold. I tried to see who or what the shadowed figure was. but I couldn’t see from where I was. I watched as the figure went beside my grandpa and touched him. My grandpa breathed in a hoarse breathe and then sighed. The figure grabbed at the air as if it was trying to grab my grandpa's breath. The figure got out a bottle and stuffed something into it. The figure turned and was about to leave it , when the figure seemed to notice me. I stared at it and it stared back. The door opened suddenly and the figure disappeared. My mom came in and told me to say goodbye to grandpa when she saw grandpa. She gasped and ran out the door. The rest of the day seemed to be a blur. Everyone came in discovering him being dead. My parents cried and kept hugging me. But I didn't say anything. I wished I could ask someone who the figure was but I knew they would just tell me I was hallucinating and that I was just sad that my grandpa was dead.

But I knew something wasn't right. Who or what was that figure? What were they doing? And most importantly…

Why was it I couldn’t stop thinking about it?

My mom and dad though acted as if it would happen. That he would go back home and he'd take me out fishing. I knew they did it because they wanted his money, like everyone else in my family.

All my cousins , aunts, uncles, and even family friends surrounded him asking who would get the money. Before my grandpa got sick,  I never knew that he had money. But apparently he's sticking rich. Everyone acted like they were one big family when the reality was that we all hated each other. My mother would always glare at my dads sisters and brothers. My mother hated my dads side of the family. It was just a fact. I asked her when I was 3 why she hated them so much.  She just frowned and said that she just had disagreements with them. 

Everyone actually thought he wasn't really going anywhere. So no one came there. My mom and dad told me to wait with him while they got the nurse so they could talk about his vesting hours. So I sat there staring at my grandpa. He was asleep. For some odd reason I always thought he looked younger when he slept. His face was more relaxed and all the wear and tear over the years seemed to disappear. His wrinkles didn't seem to be there.

 CHAPTER ONE

I didn't really understand who  I saw the day my grandpa died. All I knew was as soon as that person left, my grandpa was dead.

What happened that day was like all the others. We smiled politely at my grandpa telling him how much better he looked today, though it was a lie. It was all a lie. We only acted this way in front of the public. My dad always said a lie is sometimes better than the truth. I never did understand why though. Isn't it bad to lie? Trevor tanner at school said the worst thing ever was to lie. He told me that lying was worst than killing someone. And that anyone who lies goes to hell. I think that Trevor tanner was just being mean. He lies all the time too so doesn’t that mean that he's going to hell to?

I never understood why adults like lying though. They tell you things like, your dog went to a nice barn in the country, when in reality your dog is dead. They think your too fragile to handle it. My parents though, take it to a whole other level. They tell me what a talented artist I am and how wonderful I am at designing of clothes. For one thing I did a terrible job on the picture on purpose and even though I actually was trying to make the dress look nice I could tell they were lying.

I was only 6 at the time my grandpa died. I was pretty smart for a little kid so I knew why we visited him. It was because he was dying. My parents didn't tell me the truth because I think my grandpa honestly didn't know it himself. He always smiled and talked about he was going to get out soon and how me and him will go fishing. I always did like fishing with him. He always told me if I got a big fish then we would go out for ice-cream. But the problem with that was the fact he was at the final stage of heart cancer.

Why is everyone afraid of death? I never understood. Sure there are great things in life, but, doesn’t it get tiring? You get tired so easily when you are close to death. You get tired of moving. You get tired of talking. When you sleep that is when your happiest, for when you sleep you are free. You are not tired.  You can do whatever you like see anyone you want. The only problem is that eventually wake up. And when you do, you feel the weight of your body come back. you hear all the terrible noises around you. And then you see everyone's faces. You feel like a burden to them. So you think, why cant you take me death? Why not end the endless pain of my family? I am a burden to them. Why?

And when he does come for some reason you don’t want to go. There is something that cries out no! you try to get away but death is fast.

When you are dying you feel as if you are going to sleep. Your breath is taken and you drift off. Of course you either go to heaven or hell. But the thing no one wonders is who is death?

Because my thought is that death is a person. Death who is the loneliest person in the world. Death has no one. Death is all alone. Death cannot love.

Or can he?

23: creative story continued....

the one thing that Leanne didn't understand about the angels was why they all were different. usually the artist has the faces and the faces only, different. but for some strange reason, they all were very different. you could easily see their personalities. enthusiastic. fierce. vengeful. envious. shy. mysterious. all of them different. their wings weren't all white either. they all had different wings, different hair different eyes, everything was different except their clothing and their gender. they were all men. none of them were women. Leanne thought that since the artist was a man it would only make sense that he would have painted women. but he didn't. all the angels were handsome young men. it bothered Leanne that her grandparents gave her this room. since all the angels were young men shouldn't they be afraid that she would want to be around men twenty four seven because of this? but no. that is not what happened. instead, she was deathly afraid of men. she thought them to be so frightning with their scary eerie look they give to her when she passes by. her mother tells her there is nothing to fear, but leanne knew better. she had read the news. about the sluaghter of innocent people. all becuase of men. she knew woman though were as capable as the men to do the horrid things too. but she still couldnt forgive those afull men!

22: creative story continue.

Leanne did not realize that it had been 4 years,since.....
Leanne tried to shake the memory out of her head. that was a terrible year. Leanne smiled up at Maria and asked if she could get some tea. Maria smiled and said of course, but it was obvious she was worried about her. Before Maria disappeared through the secret door for maids, she glanced over at Leanne. Leanne smiled but then let it drop when Maria was out of sight. How many years would it take for her to forget the memories of that day? She dropped her face into her hands feeling the unwelcomed tears going slowly down her cheeks. She use to try to make herself stop, but that had only made things worse. She would cry longer and sob harder. It was terrible. But now that Leanne knew this fact she had decided it was best to wait it out and let them come. She sat up straighter and found herself staring at a girl from across the room. 
The girl had blond waves of hair that captured every light source to make it shine. She had an a heart shaped face that was almost disappearing in her long hair. Tears ran down from her huge silver eyes that were specked with gold. Her lips were high arched and full. The girl wore a black and red ruffled dress. She stared back at me, this girl, and smiled.
" I guess its just you and me." We both said in harmony.
Leanne sighed and sat back into my chair. Leanne stared up at the angels above on the ceiling. She never understood why her grandparents had kept them up there. The rest of the house was plain except this room.
It had beautiful paintings and furniture.... though it was odd to find it all in a guest room. When she had asked them why they just smiled and said simply and blunt
" Oh you'll know soon enough....."
I still didn't understand. I gave up when i was a small child. 

continue on the next post....

21 post: creative story

Leanne didn’t understand what exactly was going on, but she didn’t like it either way. Her mother had taken her to her grandparents where she was to wait for her while she had a little ‘chit chat’ with her aunt Margaret. She never did like her aunt. She had a long pointed nose that was ,it seemed, to be always stuck up in the air.she had glare stuck onto her face. Her lips were thin and were always twisted into disgust, as if nothing could please her. Her eyes were the thing that made Leanne certain though, that she never, ever, would agree with or like the women. They were the color of rotten squash and always had a most haunting look to them. They always stared , it seemed, into your soul, and could see all your faults. Her mother though, being a kind and gentle woman, excepted everything of the woman. She always invited her to tea, picnics, and even to Leanne's birthday. But she always declined. Never once had she excepted an invitation, She didn't even bother giving an excuse.
She didn't understand though why her mother wanted to speak to the woman now. Though her mother was kind hearted she did not talk to her aunt very much at all. They always had short quick discussions. But they avoided each other as much as they could. Leanne sighed and sat down looking at the tea room they had disappeared to. Whe wondered what on earth they could be talking about...
" Miss Leanne? I said would you like some tea?"
Leanne quickly got out of her trance and looked up. Maria Lockeheart stood before her, looking down at her with concern. She smiled. It was alway's nice to see an old friend. Maria Lockeheart had long curly brown hair that turned into a gorgeous FIRERY red in the sun light. And her eyes, oh how they shined! They had a mixture of brown green and stormy blue. It was sad though, that she was a maid. if Maria had been raised properlly and had clean clothing that wasent in patches....  
Leanne shook her head and smiled. It doesn't matter though. she knew everything about Leanne. Leanne could even say she knew her better than she did!
Leanne smiled.
"How are you Maria? How is your family? Oh you must tell me everything! its been so long...."
Leanne stopped herself. It had been a long time.

i will continue in the next post.

20th post: what is the most disgusting thing you saw yesterday?

well i was in the kitchen when my mom asked me to go outside and get some of the kittens stuff. now this stuff had been out there for like, the beggining of school right? so i go out and pick something up,  lucky me got the most disgusting. they were two dishes stuck together with something that looked like either poop or old food. stupid me unstuck them. big mistake.
on the other side was not only an disgusting smell but about 50 maggots. they were squirming around and it was just so...... disgusting. i screamed like a little cheerleader and ran inside saying 'ew' about twenty times before i could tell my mother what was wrong. i told her that i refuse to do the dishes un till she had told everyone to clean off their dishes.
i had to do them anyways.

19 post: what is it that makes you smile?

a good joke  is what really makes me smile.just smile cuase i dont like my luagh so i cover my mouth and just smile. i cant help it. what also makes me smile is when i look at pictures that bring back good memories.  it just is so nice to find pictures that you forgo all about and remember what happened after/during/before the pic was taken. i really enjoy that.
good food. i hate to admit it but i enjoy food so much. i love all the different tastes and textures. a good meal brings a nice satisfied smile to my face. ( and if you look at me you can definitlly see that i like food)
you may think im crazy what im gonna tell you next but i smile if i have a good story or like i call them 'imagination splurges'. i space out a lot so i have nothing else to do but let my mind wander everywhere and anywhere. sometimes its too realisic though. my mind can go to really dark places and sometimes cry. so i try to limit it.
the last thing that really makes me smile is my family and friends. i cant help but smile when i see everyone having a good time or see them smile. i try my best to be happy when they are but its sometimes hard.

17th post: wrte a poem.

people judge and people critize all the time.

they tell lies about other religiuons and people. 

they say that your wrong if you dont agree with them.
they try to bring you down just so others will listen to them.
and why do we listen?
why do we let people change things that werent meant to be changed.
becuase we are afraid.
afraid that we will not be excepted.
afraid that people will judge us.
afraid that becuase we dont agree that they will make us suffer.
its just how we humans are.
but,
there are those who are brave and who will try everything to protect our culture ( if we even have one....)

18th post: write a story.

maria didn't realize it but her father was leaving.
she didn't realize this because he said he would call and that he would visit, but he was lieing and he knew it.
it wasn't that he wanted to leave it was just that he needed to focus on his work.
she smiled as he left but soon felt empty inside.
her father looked back and saw her slowly let her head hang.
he felt sad for doing this to her but he had to. didn't he?
the reality of the fact was though he didn't.
he only wanted to stop fighting with her mother.
he wanted not to be stressed anymore.
so his conscience took over and pretty much decided in order to feel better he needed to leave.
a day past and he hadn't called.
a day turned into two days.
then a week.
then a month.
then a year.
maria waited and waited but he never came back.
he never called.
she now couldn't help but cry every time she thinks of him.
no one really cared though.
mostly because she was good st hiding her feelings.
she understood why they couldn't but she was sad to see no one really knew her. \
soon she just, closed up.
she stopped talking.
she just stopped.
like a clock that doesn't work.
she just layed in bed.
no one knew what to do.
all of them were stupid.
they didn't realize that she was obviously heart broken from being abandoned by someone she loved and knew.
they all just ran around blabbing out these symptoms. 
she stayed like this for a week when out of no where, she felt a hand on her shoulder.
and then she heard  her dad say "hey sweetie."
immediately she got up and hugged him.
she smiled and was happy.

16th post: what was youre day like after school?

so im in my room right? and im just sitting there trying to do my home work when all of a sudden tyler comes in.he keeps asking me to give him the acer. i tell him no and to get out when the boys start coming in crying at me.im just sitting there staring up at all of them thinking:
why did they suddenly decide to enter my room? why not just wait untill im actually out and about? 
i tryed to tell the boys to get out of my room but they kept whining at me telling me to fix their toys. tyler was in there asking me when i would give him the acer. i finally got them out and hid the acer so tyler wouldnt go online and read some manga.( reason is becuase my mom thinks then its me and gets all mad)
my mother was telling me to go down staires and clean the kitchen and then my room and do my homework and not to eat only corn and cheese( dont ask) and to baby sit the boys and make dinner for them and all that usual stuff. jeff was yelling at me to get my lazy but up and go do my chores and that im not doing them the right way and to stop fighting with my brother. by the time im done, im exausted. i sigh and fall onto my bed. i get out the acer and do what i can. though usual its not that much cuase i have to get to bed at a certain time. usual 8:00  becuase when i get in my bed i usual dont get to sleep till like 11:00 or 12:00 but ive gotten used to it so... ya.

16th post: whats youre top five favorite disney charecters?

my top five Disney characters are :
 snow white
 
Donald duck
 
Rapunzel 
 
stitch
 
and Jessie
 
the reason i chose these specific characters are because, one i love snow white and i used to watch it none stop when i was a kid. the reason why i chose Donald duck is because he is so funny. i love it how he gets mad and trys to make something stop. i chose Rapunzel because i think shes kinda like me. (and cause i love the movie. also i like this quote "that's the thing about birthdays. its kind of an annual thing.") i chose stitch because i was obsessed with  him. i thought he was just the cutest thing! i still think he's cute. any ways i chose Jessie, because i just love toy story. but besides Mrs. potato shes the only girl.(little Bo peep got sold so....ya shes gone.). us girls gotta represent! i might as well put down my favorite villains.:
mother gothel
 
maleficent
 
Dr. Facilier, a.k.a. the Shadow Man 
 
dialgo
 
and scar

15th: waffles or pancakes? why?

i like pancakes more becuase they are fluffy and yummy. i wish they could make a pancake/waffle hybrid. that would be delicious. but what if the experiment went wrong? what if they came alive? what if they took over the earth and decided to destroy all pancakes and waffles?!?!?! what if.......
uh sorry got carried away. haha. ahem. anyways i also like pancakes. you can put all sorts of crap on it and it is still good.v
eggs, spinnich, strawberrys ( yummy yumm yumms >^<), blue berries, candy, beef, and so much more! i looooooove pancakes
on the other hand...
waffles are really good too. they taste good with bacon while pancakes..... not so much. i think crunchy with fluffy sometimes isent good together.
anyways i have nothing else to really say on this subject so..... toodaloo!

14th post: write a short story.

raven looked all around trying to find an exit. there were none.

"so you thought you could escape did you?"

she whirled around to see Dr. Morgan standing behind her. 

he smiled his horrid smile and walked slowly toward her.

she backed up finding a wall behind her. she glared at him.

"you ll never get away with this! someone will find me!"

"oh but my dear, i believe you forgot something, i have the power o-" 

 

click.

i whirl around to see my mother holding the remote, a scowl on her face.

"what the heck mom! i was watching that! this is the only time its gonna be on!"

" well you should have thought of that before you 'forgot' to do you're chores."

i looked behind her to find that the dishes had not been done. they piled up high. i look at my mom my jaw dropped.

"you expect me to do that! i think some of that stuff on that plate is coming alive! its disgusting!"

" that's because you haven't been doing it!"

" well maybe if you helped me it wouldn't get this bad!"

" well maybe if you got off you're lazy butt it wouldn't!"

" oh my gosh! you are such a slave driver!"

" oh am i? well then i guess since that's what i am ill also make you do the garbage's!"

" and you call me lazy! oh my gosh you have no idea what its like for me!"

( its not exactley fiction.... i think ive actually had this conversation with my mom.....)

12th post: how many siblings do you have? name them and say something about them that you think is interesting.

(sorry about doing 13 before 12!!!! '>o< )
 how many siblings do i have? i have about... 9. i have 
Elliot : the baby of the family. i cant believe how he can be hungry after eating 2 sandwiches and a bowl of cereal.
Quin : the second youngest. same as up there and i also don't get how he still likes Thomas the tank engine when hes nine.
Tyler: he is the youngest of the Wilson clan. (me Katelyn and him.) he can act really well. sometimes he fake cry's to get what he wants.... doesn't usually work anymore since he's 13. 
Preston: he is one of my step brothers. what do i find interesting? well he likes older girls apparently....
Amy: she is one of my step sisters. i really don't get why she crys for her mom whenever she visits us. i mean, its only for a week! sometimes even less....
Katelyn: she is the oldest of the Wilson clan. she is crazy and scary and is bossy......like a mom.
Amanda: she is another one of my step sisters. she is out of high school but doesn't go to college ( going on the computer and doing college doesn't count.) and just sits at home doing nothing.
Jeremy: he is another one of my step brothers. he is in the air force and finds time to rip apart his car and then make it better..... 
Anthony: my older brother who is sadly dead. i wish he had lived so then i could have another cool older brother at home....
any ways those are my siblings!

13th entry: what is youre favorite movie? what is it about?

my favorite movie is the princess bride. i love it so much!
ok so this is what the story is about.....
girl name buttercup picks on guy she thinks she hates but ends up loving him.
guy keeps saying as you wish meaning i love you!!!!
she finds out kisses him and then they realize that hes a farm boy.
so he goes out to sea to seek his fortune.
he dies after a few weeks by the dread pirate roberts.
buttercup is depressed and would not love again she swore.
she ends up engaged to prince humperdink but doesnt love him.
she gets kidnapped by a giant who rhymes, a vengfull swordsman and a midget who says "inconcible!" a lot.
there followed by a nionja pirate who beats all of them.
buttercups groom to be goes after her.
she finds out that the amazing pirate ninja is westley.
they kiss and then go to the fire swamp.
they pass fire shoots , dry quicksand and rus's (rodents of unuasual size.) and finally make it out.
her prince meets them and tells his men to put him beck to his ship.
but instead he ends up in a torture chamber.
buttercup gets mad at the prince and says she will never marry him.
he trys to prusuade her that she should wait and see if he saves her.
while she waits though the giant and swords man try to find westley.
but when they find him its too late.
he is dead.
they take him to miracle max who gives them a pill to revive him.
instead of waiting like they were told they give him the pill and then find that he cant move.
they go through the gate and find the six fingered man (the one who killed the swordsmans father. he has been looking for revenge for a while.)
they fight but westley goes somewhere else.
meanwhile buttercup goes to her room and gets ready to kill herself. for she did marry him.
westley turns out is in her bed and begs her not to. they kiss and then are inturupted by humpertink.
he gets frightened when he sees him stand and does what hes ask.
swordsman got revenge and giant was happy to help.
buttercup and westley kiss and then ride off to the sunset.

current event: Do animals smile?

i was looking around on yahoo lookng for a current event to do when i saw this article. i at first thought, well duh! of course they can. though i hadent thought it to be quit like this. i thought it was just something about how they its not really them smiling its just them having gas or something like that. but no. they were actually talking about how they actually are smiling. i mostley think that scientists are so indecisive. any ways, i was reading about how they have all the emotions we humans have and im telling my acer, 'of course they do!why do you think we have an animal abuse thing? if they had no emoitions, then they wouldnt care what happened to them!'
as im telling it this my stepdad comes in and looks at me strangley. of course this just proves how crazy i really am.
anyways,back on the topic. so they talked about how animals have the same feelings as humans, like for example, happiness, sadness, fear, anger, love, and even jealousey. it is strange that they are finally seeing this..... i guess they just thought there had to be a scientific answer to it. but all it really is is them showing their feelings. so yes they smile and yes they actually have the same feelings as humans.
 heres where i found it:
http://green.yahoo.com/blog/greenpicks/316/do-animals-smile.html

11th journal entry: what was youre elementry school?

my old elementry school was braitain elementry. it is in springfeild eugene where it will soon be destroyed. i dont know why they would though. that school, is the best schol in the whole universe. it has nice office ladies and the most awsome teachers ever. thanks to one of them ( Mr. Tracey) i am here. if it hadent been him, i would have failed 4th and 5th grade. reason is becuase i went to a different school. they thought i was "special" and needed "special" care. they treated me like i was the dumbest person in the world. i dident learn how to do multipley and divide, i learned how to add and subtract, again. i finally got out. but when i got into my classes i dident know how to spell well , do math, or even read. mr. tracey knew what to do though. he understood how i learned and think. he helped me easily and by the end of the year. i even got addicted to books. i loved braiten elementry. but now their going to destroy it. i am happy to say that even if thats true i still get to see it before they destroy.

10th post: whats youre least favorite thing to do?

10th post: whats youre least favorite thing to do?

im sad to admit this but i absolutley hate to excirsice. i like to walk but not too far. i guess thats why i dont do sports. the main reason is becuase its just so annoying to have youre sides burning, i just sometimes wanna itch them. but i dont cuase that would be really weird. im just saying. 
i dont really know what else to say. i also dont like it when there is a lot of noise. if its music im fine with it. becuase i love music. i feel free and am more relaxed when i listen to it. anyways, i dont like a lot of noise becuase it just distracts me and/or its yelling. i hate yelling. i never have. thats why i dont like football games. or concerts that much. i can go and be alright as long as i have my friends and theres music. at home its really hard. whenever i hear yelling my head starts to therob and a shiver runs down my arms. when i yell its worse. my head starts feeling like theres liquid fire and i am shaking inside and out. when i yell it hurts my voice and then i start crying.... which i hate. and thats why i dont try to yell. i also try to have everyone else not yell, but thats near to impossible. they yell to tell everyone its time for dinner or that mom wants you or to shut up. but i guess lifes like that.

ninth post: whos youre favorite pet?

My favorite pet is my cat Zoë. She is a calico. When I first got her it was almost my birthday, around…. August. We were looking for cats online because I really wanted one. I had begged my mom   a million times to get me one (since we only had switchfoot and a hampster.) and when she finally said yes i was really happy. i couldnt wait untill we got my kitten. well we ended up looking for kittens online. we found two kittens who were only a month old and needed a home  in another month. i was really excited and couldnt wait till i got to see them. i waited and waited and waited and waited, but it still wasent time. i got very unpatient. by the time it was time to get them i had gotten so impatient that i almost drove the car. but my mom stopped me before i could. im really embarresed now on how i acted back then. the woman who had the kittens was very nice and told us what they couldnt and could eat. when i held zoe i felt so happy. but she just felt hungry. she kept on crying out and wouldnt stay in one place. i couldnt handle it after a while and just gave her a small hand full of food. her sister then wanted food to. i gave her some to and she just gobbled it up. i guess they are both piggys (they still are to this day.) i got to show all my friends and my grandma my new kitten and my sisters too. im happy to say they are still alive and switchfoot has learned to live with them.

eighth entry: something that cuaght youre eye today...

today i was having lunch as usual, sitting alone, when the group that called me over yesterday well, called me over again. i said sure as usual and sat down. i ate my lunch and listened to their conversations. it was all crazy and weird as usual, when all of a sudden one of the guys (lets call him poem man- you'll find out soon why) any ways poem man said " you do know you are all my freshman right? " i stared at him and thought what?  what do you mean you're freshmen? When the other guy (his name is now bob) said  " but I'm a sophomore," poem man said jokingly " you're a freshman" then bob says " you're a freshman!" they keep going on like this when poem man says " you're a jerk." then it stopped and poem man talked about how that always stopped an argument and stuff. i sat there listening smiling and laughing 'at something funny. then most of them got finished eating and left. it was just me 2 girls and poem man. now i will tell you why i called him poem man. he said he would be right back and left. when he came back he had a little binder with him. he asked us what type of poem we wanted. the girl next to me and i said depressing and the other girl said i dont know. he gave us a happy poem. i read it and smiled. it was really good. i told him this and he luaghed and said no and it was a peice of crap. i smiled cuase it reminds me of myself cause i dont think my art is any good. but youre youre own worst critic. but that what i noticed today. his poems. cuase they are truley amazing.

seventh entry: how was youre first real day in Tera Nova?

when i entered the school i was pretty nervous that no one would really like me or that someone would tell me to get out of there cause i didn't belong. but instead i had people who smiled at me and welcomed me. some even introduced themselves and showed me to the class i was supposed to go to. there was really only one person there i knew. we had met at Conestoga and he didn't like me at all right away. i didn't mind though. I'm used to people hating me and/or being rude to me. i just avoided him as much as i could. so i was introduced and a bunch of people gave friendly hellos and welcomes. i was really happy. when i got into art someone without even asking told me what to do for art. she gave me specific instructions on what to do for it. i was very happy about this. i said thank you but she only smiled. i went and did as i was told then and had fun sketching the leaves. i went to my next class happily, but still shy, and sat down by myself. someone sat down next to me and smiled. i smiled back but then tried to concentrate on what was going on. after this was lunch. i was alright with being alone at this time. its good to have time to think. i sat down with my lunch happy as a bird  and ate my lunch. of course i always have trouble eating stuff like burritos and chicken wraps. i think they don't really like me. it pretty much discombobulated on my plate so i had to get a fork.
once i was done with my wrap. i was just starting to eat my grapes when a teacher came and said worryingly "do you not want to be introduced to some new people?" i smiled at her saying saying 
"its fine." i went back to my grapes and popped one in my mouth. "are you sure? i don't like seeing you sitting here all alone." pop."no really its fine." smile. "okay, just wanted to check on you." she walks away to another teacher. i smile. what a nice teacher. i go back to my grapes popping them in my mouth admiring their delicious flavor. i notice both of the other groups are staring at me. one of them was smaller than the other with people who mostly wore black. i always thought id be apart of that particular group of people. but instead i was invited over to the bigger group which had tons of colors and laughing people. i was used to crazy people inviting me over to groups but normal people? (my definition is different than other people, some would say that that group was crazy.) i decided to join them anyway and gathered up my stuff. of course i9 forgot that my piece of paper was in my hand so it ripped while i got my backpack over my shoulder. i sighed and went over to them. i had fun. they joked around while i covered my face so they wouldn't hear my laugh. i hate my laugh. i think its terrible. they thought i was scared because of this. they told the guy at the table that his face had frightened me. i explained to them i actually thought they were funny and that my friends were crazier. they were shocked. they all laughed and said they felt sorry for me. i smiled secretly and thought if only you truly new me. i went to my other classes happily with the same manners and niceness. i was happy with the results. im still happy about them.

sixth post: tell a short story of a time you got lost.

When i was about five years old we went to Disneyland. We were having tons of fun, what with the rides and such. we went to a certain area where there were animals. I was a little kid who was in Disneyland full of sugar and Adrenalin near a bunch of animals who looked pretty. What could go wrong? A lot of things. I let go of my aunts hand because i wanted to check out the pretty pink and blue birds. I yelled "I'm gonna see the birdies Shanny!!!" to her but she probably couldn't hear me over all the noise. I rushed over in front of the cage and just stared at the birds in wonder. About 20 minutes later i was ready to go. I turned around and was saying "OK I'm ready to go!!!" when i noticed something. My aunt wasn't there. My three cousins weren't there. My brother, my sister, my grandma, and my dad were just not there.How would you feel if it was hot and there were a lot of strangers around you and you were somewhere you didn't recognise and the other fact you're just a kid. I at first felt surprised then I felt scared. Scared that they wouldn't find me scared that I was all alone! I started to tremble. What will they do to me if my parents come? Then came the water works. I cried and sat down. What will i do? I had thought at the time. What will i eat? Where will i sleep? I cried even more. All of a sudden i hear some one. I look up to find a nice looking lady on her knees in front of me. She was saying " Are you alright?" In a nice worried voice. I shook my head no. " Can you talk?" she asked . I nod but still say nothing. My mother and father always told me not to talk to strangers, no matter how nice they are. She stared at me then sighed muttering something like " Kids these days" she then looked around and asked another  question."Where's you're parents?" I looked up and say against my will
" I don't know!!! But i want them! I don't wanna be alone!" The nice woman stares at me, surprised, then sighs and says "You're not alone. You got me. Listen, why don't we put you in the lost and found so the people here can find you're parents and bring them to you?". I nodded and went with her. Few minutes later my family comes and 'saves' me and then i get grounded for when we get home since i ran off. I had  never been happier in my entire life though.

CURRENT EVENT: NEW FROG SPECIES FOUND

http://news.yahoo.com/scientists-discover-12-frog-species-india-095127170.html
it has taken years for these scientits to find what they were looking for. looking under rocks and flashing flashlights whenever they here a croak. happily the have found them now though. well its paid off for they have found 12 new frog species and 3 frog species that were thought extinct. its really hard for these scientists to get funding to protect these frogs since india is focusing on elephants and tigers to protect. 

"Frogs are extremely important indicators not just of climate change, but also pollutants in the environment," said the project's lead scientist, biologist Sathyabhama Das Biju of the University of Delhi.

these frogs are also extremeley hard to find. they are night frogs. there are 3 reasons why night frogs are hard to find:
one: they live on moist forest ground
two:they can also live in fast streams
three: they come out only at dark and during the monsoon season
and here are some of the cute frogs:
the meowing night frog, whose croak sounds more like a cat's call, the jog night frog, unique in that both the males and females watch over the eggs, and the Wayanad night frog, which grows to about the size of a baseball or cricket ball.
im glad i read this article. it was cute and slightly funny.

current event: dinosuar killing a mystery now

http://news.yahoo.com/origin-dinosaur-killing-asteroid-still-mystery-182402229.html 

at reading this i thought what? but i thought they had solid proof that that's what happened!

but apparently that isn't the case, scientists (WISE group) that there is no evidence of this actually happening. apparently the asteroid they thought that had broke off more than 160 million years actually broke off more than 80 million years ago. how they figured this out was by studying the main belts of mars and Jupiter finding the ancestors of the original asteroid. they found in their studies that fact. they got this also by the fact that it takes more than ten million years for an asteroid to arrive to earth.

when i read this article i was very intrigued by the fact that it takes an asteroid more than ten million years to reach our planet. other than that it was really boring. i know that it may excite scientists and all but it completely bores me out of my mind. but i also couldn't find any other article so..... had to use what i got. here's what the people had to say:

NASA scientist Amy Mainzer said: "This process is thought to normally take many tens of millions of years."
Another NASA expert, Lindley Johnson, said: "As a result of the WISE science team's investigation, the demise of the dinosaurs remains in the cold case files.
"The original calculations with visible light estimated the size and reflectivity of the Baptistina family members, leading to estimates of their age, but we now know those estimates were off.
"With infrared light, WISE was able to get a more accurate estimate, which throws the timing of the Baptistina theory into question."
So the asteroid family that produced the dinosaur-killing remnant remains at large.
http://news.sky.com/home/article/16073892

CURRENT EVENTS: Traffic light camera scam steals your identity

where i got this artical:
http://autos.yahoo.com/news/traffic-light-camera-scam-steals-your-identity.html
the article is about these scammers who call you up on the phone to tell you that you have a 'late red light ticket fee' and that if you dont pay right then and there (on the phone) then they will get a warrant and take you to court and make you pay. in the article it explains that we dont notice that its a scam, becuase we usually just pay off the fee if we are cuaght running a red light .
it also talks about how they give you a phony identification number and give an excuse like "their calling from a different office" or "they have a new number that hasn't been set up yet." the "traffic cop" will ask for your credit card information, including the security code. and then the guy will call you again to tell you that you were wrongley convicted and/or they thought it was youre car but its someone elses.
when i started reading this i thought that it was probably something dumb and stuff, but then i started reading some more and realized that this was serious. it can happen to anyone really. im really glad that i read this article, it was pretty interesting and dident have me snoring.as i was reading this i thought about all the times my mom has gotten calls and dient answer them becuase she dident know the number. i think i understand why now understand why. heres something i dont get though, why do people have credt cards anyways? why do they give their money to a random stranger even though they now that they have the risk of identity theft. why dont people just put their money somewhere like a basement or a giant vase or in a giant piggy bank? i really dont understand this.
article by: Jessica Citizen 
 Mon, Sep 19, 2011 2:02 PM 
on yahoo.com

5th entry: What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? Why do you like it? Describe the taste.

My favorite ice cream would have to be-green tea ice cream. The reason I like it so much is because it's, well, strange but pleasant-like me!
Anyways I first got a taste when I went to sushi with my friend Cassie and her family this summer. I wanted to try something new and when I got there but didn't know what to get( sushi wise) I then saw a little menu that said that they had red bean ice cream and green tea ice cream. I wanted to try out the green tea because I had seen a sign at Dairy Queen one time that said that a green tea blizzard was popular there. When I saw the sign I thought that it sounded delicious and that I wish I could have some. But they didn't have any there. So I tried it and loved it! It was strange though. I asked my friend to try it and tell me what she thought and she said " It tastes strange but good all at the same time."
Her little sister would beg a differ at that though.
Now the texture is strange and smooth. The taste is sharp and tingles your tongue. When it starts to melt you can taste the tea. It's really good.

fourth entry: what was youre favorite toy in youre childhood?

i actually dident have  favorite toy. i had my blanky . it had mini mouse on it and i absolutley adored it. my favorite thing about it was the fact that my parents dident care about where i took it or how dirty i got it. they would let me do whatever i wanted with it. now that im older im fairly suspicious about this and im starting to think that they may have had a huge pile of them in their room. anyways i loved my blanket so much that i wouldnt let it out of my sight. when i went over to someones house i had my blanky. when i went to a musem i had my blanky. when i went to school i would sneek my blanky in my backpack. so pretty much i went every where with it and did everything with it. after my grandpa died i was even more attached to it. i wouldnt let go it no matter what. and if someone got lucky and snatched it away from me, i would start crying and throwing a fit and wouldnt stop till i got back my blanket.
when i started to finally get less attached to it my dad told me that we were moving. i was very sad to hear this becuase i loved my house and street. after we had moved and gor settled in the new house i noticed that i couldnt find my blankie. i looked everywher for it but had no luck what soever. i think my parents decided to take it away in hopes i would forget about it. i did eventually

third entry: what is youre favorite tv show?

my favorite tv show is ,i may sound like a huge nerd when i say this but , startrek voyager. it is the only star trek with a woman captain, which i dont get ( maybe they were trying to be sexist.......) . i have to watch all of the old startrek stuff cuase they havent made any new startrek stuff ( except for the new one with the guy from heros as spock....) though im kinda glad they havent cuase then in the first episode they would be having sex or be cussing at someone else like its ok to cuss. so im kinda gld that they havent. my other favorite tv show is doctor who. it is an english tv show that is based on a guy named the doctor. hes a alein. who travles thru time. in a blue police box. and its the best show in the whole wide universe. he usually has some chick with him that either falls despratley in love with him or is one of his best of buds ever. they travel thru time and visit other planets and usually saves them and doesnt get credit for. some people call him the enemy some call him the hero. and some think hes a legend. it has a very interesting plot and the storys are awsome. i forgot to mention this though. every time he dies he turns into a new doctor with a new face a new attitude and all of that jazz.... but hes awsome either way.

second journal entry: make up a short story

"Maria!"

maria looked up to find her math teacher standing right over her. she opened her mouth and yawned looking down at her desk she froze terrified at what she saw. she whipped her head toward her teacher and started to ramble. 

" im so sorry teacher! i dident know - you i- i dident get any sleep last night studying so hard and- im sooooooo sorry teacher! i dident mean to-" she gulped up some air and stared nervousley at her teacher. her teacher had the same stern look on her face as she ussually did. 

why me? maria thought in her head , i always turn in my work! i never have gone to sleep during a test before... 

maria watched horrified as the teacher snatched her test and walked over to her desk. maria watched as she wrote something on her test and walk back to her desk and put the test in front of her. maria grabbed it and read what was on it. she stopped for a moment and then started to luagh histarocley. maria got up grabbed the test and her backpack and went home. 

on the test it said: 

dear miss maria, 

please be informed that you did pass the test but slept thru the rest of it and school itself! i could not arouse you from youre sleep so i left you where you were. might i ask that you please go home and get some rest? and please check youre calander for i think it may be of use to you.
satrday, october 22 2011

first journal entry: whats youre favorite color and why?

my favorite color would be scarlet becuase, it is so vibrant and bright and lively! i really enjoy the color... i also like it becuase it really stands out. for example, if some one was to where a scarlet shirt and walk right into the crowd you would still be able to see them. (but there is the problem that  someone else may be wearing a scarlet shirt too....) fun fact:  I used to say when i was a kid that my favorite color was the rainbow. a lot of people look at me and say`what?` or just think i was some crazy kid. what i was trying to say was that i liked all the colors and couldnt one out specifiley. but yeah thats my favorite color.

Monica's first blog.....

So
here I am
yeah
ok
so,
now what?